Last night I was having the hardest time falling asleep. This is not the norm for me. Usually I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow and I rarely wake up in the middle of the night. God had different plans last night. As I was getting ready for bed, a name crossed my mind...sweet young lady, awesome woman of the Lord, just met her a month ago. So, I added her to my nightly prayers. Well, after I finished praying she was still on my heart. Quite honestly, my first reaction was, "Lord, I already prayed for her...why is she still on my heart?" After pleading with Him to grant me sleep for the next 45 minutes, I finally got out of my bed and got on my knees to pray for her.
I felt so unqualified to be praying. I didn't know what was going on in her life. Surely someone else could pray for her better than I could, but the urge I had to pray for her was overwhelming.
When I talked to her last, she told me about the guy she was dating. She talked about her special someone just like my friend Natalie talks about Scott. So, I prayed for their relationship just as I did for Natalie and Scott's before they were married. I prayed that if it was meant to be that He would make His plans perfectly clear and that if it wasn't that He would surround them with people to speak truth into their lives and offer support when things begin to crumble. I pulled out journals of prayers that I had prayed over Natalie and Scott and replaced their names with the other couples'. Finally at about 2AM, I fell asleep.
Flashforward to this morning. I sent the girl a quick message just to say that I was lifting her up in prayer and this is what I got back (names removed)...
IT WAS GOD WEIGHING ME ON YOUR HEART!!!!! Lindsey, something has happened to ***** and I. ***** broke up with me Sunday.. Lindsey- God and I have cried and wailed in wrestling over this.. I was literally laying in bed praying for someone to lift me up and praying for clarity and trust in this circumstance if in fact this is God's deliverance... I literally feel like I have been delivered.
Oh my goodness. As I read the words, chills ran up my back and tears flooded my eyes. I had NO clue what was going on in her life, but God did. I felt highly unqualified, but The Lord met me there and showed me that once again HE DOESN'T NEED US TO ACCOMPLISH HIS WILL, but HE LONGS TO USE US!!
Thank you Lord for not giving up on me. Thank you for pushing and prodding me to pray. Thank you sweet friend for sharing your heart with me. What a testament to the power of intercessory prayer!