My last post was written two weeks ago.
Though it was unintentional, I guess you could say that I was taking a sabbatical from my blog...a blog-atical, if you will.
I don't really know how it happened, but it did. In fact, there were quite a few things that happened during my absence that I could have blogged about. But, I didn't blog. And, it was in that not blogging that I realized something about myself.
I'm a creature of habit, but get me out of my routine and it's almost as if I never had the habit to begin with. This is true in so many areas of my life.
Eating. Exercising. Journaling. Reading. Calling friends. Spending time with the Lord. And now, blogging.
I've known that for a long time...but the aha came in understanding why.
I struggle to forgive myself for getting out of the routine. Instead of just saying, oh well...I missed it...I end up getting so frustrated with myself for getting off track. Then, before I know it, I look back and I'm not just off track, I'm on a whole new road. It can take me days, weeks, months to get back into the swing of things. It's not a good rut to get stuck in.
That may not make any sense. I mean, I'm out of practice in terms of putting my thoughts into writing. Of course, even if I was good at that, it took me years to figure out what the problem was in the first place. So, it would make complete sense that it doesn't make sense. :)
Hopefully, now that I've had this little realization, I can get to working on it. After all, the first step to fixing a problem is identifying it.
So, it's identified. I'm forgiving myself. I'm moving on. However, I must say...though I really missed blogging these past few weeks, I'm grateful because it taught me a lesson that I've been needing to learn for a long time.