Friday, September 25, 2009

A Bloggy Lesson

My last post was written two weeks ago.

Though it was unintentional, I guess you could say that I was taking a sabbatical from my blog...a blog-atical, if you will.

I don't really know how it happened, but it did. In fact, there were quite a few things that happened during my absence that I could have blogged about. But, I didn't blog. And, it was in that not blogging that I realized something about myself.

I'm a creature of habit, but get me out of my routine and it's almost as if I never had the habit to begin with. This is true in so many areas of my life.

Eating. Exercising. Journaling. Reading. Calling friends. Spending time with the Lord. And now, blogging.

I've known that for a long time...but the aha came in understanding why.

I struggle to forgive myself for getting out of the routine. Instead of just saying, oh well...I missed it...I end up getting so frustrated with myself for getting off track. Then, before I know it, I look back and I'm not just off track, I'm on a whole new road. It can take me days, weeks, months to get back into the swing of things. It's not a good rut to get stuck in.

That may not make any sense. I mean, I'm out of practice in terms of putting my thoughts into writing. Of course, even if I was good at that, it took me years to figure out what the problem was in the first place. So, it would make complete sense that it doesn't make sense. :)

Hopefully, now that I've had this little realization, I can get to working on it. After all, the first step to fixing a problem is identifying it.

So, it's identified. I'm forgiving myself. I'm moving on. However, I must say...though I really missed blogging these past few weeks, I'm grateful because it taught me a lesson that I've been needing to learn for a long time.

5 comments:

DeFeo Diary said...

oh thank the lord. i was about to have to call you on this. i am thrilled that it was your sister's bday - but i need more lindsey updates on life! :-) been missing you. wait - are you here this weekend? a little birdie might have mentioned it to me that has blonde hair and 2 blonde girls...

Whitney Walker Alexander said...

Busy, Linds? I know the feeling. I feel guilty about how much I post every time I think about my blog!

It was so good to hear from you!

Kelley Brown said...

This SO makes sense!! I function in the exact same way. This post made me think more about it...thanks!!

ashleighspeir said...

This was so good to read! I do the same thing! If you're ok with it, I'm going to post a little excerpt on my blog and link back to the whole story here. Everyone needs to show themselves a little grace. :)

QuixoticAntics said...

I'm so glad you blogged about this, Lindsey! I struggle with the same problem. You truly hit the nail on the head when you diagnosed it as being an unforgiveness issue more than anything else! Thanks so much for shedding some light =)